Growing up, we were almost totally self- sufficient. We went to town once a month at the most. Otherwise, we grew or raised practically everything we needed right there on the ranch. I remember once a friend offered me a yogurt when I was 10 or 11 and I had no idea what she was talking about. We didn’t drink soft drinks, ate very little candy and rarely ate anything that was not homemade
One of the things I missed most when I went to college was what my dad always called “wild milk:” fresh, unpasteurized, homogenized, straight-from-the-cow milk. I could hardly stand to drink what I bought from the store. For 18 years, we had milked a cow and that meant we had fresh cream, butter, and cottage cheese, too. Not to mention the strongest handshake in the state. I didn’t realize how good I had it.
My mother made bread once a week and I was usually in charge of churning the butter. When the fresh bread came out of the oven, there was a rush for hot bread and butter. Yum!
I’ve always wanted my little girl to experience some of those grassroots things. I think they’re very important. So little of the population even really knows where food comes from or how it is made. In our house we still make everything from scratch, no mixes here!
I’ve been lucky enough to purchase a share in a milk cow and now we have fresh milk. After saving the cream off several gallons, I had enough to churn. Finding the churn was a little bit of a challenge, but one was procured. We went through the ritual of dumping in the cream and letting it rise to room temperature, all the while a little girl was running by giving the handle a quick turn, begging to make butter.
When it was ready, it was ready! Ten minutes later we had a pound and half of beautiful, hand-churned butter ready to be worked, salted and stored.
How good can life get?!
For great information about Real Milk and all of its benefits check out this site www.westonaprice.org
Originally published on the first contemporarywesterndesign.com site June 2007
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
from the Archives, "Gus-Gus the Goose"
Double Take. Was it real or a wind up toy?
That’s what went through my mind as I watched this tiny little creature intrepidly making its way over the black top of a busy parking lot outside our favorite little restaurant, the Sundance Café, in Dubois, Wyoming.
It was not a wind up, but a little, green-gray gosling fresh out of Horse Creek. Lost? Obviously.
Aspen and I tried to herd it back to the river. Ever tried to herd a goose? Impossible! So I swooped it up, put him in my coat and trooped over to the creek, to its siblings, the goose and gander.
Unfortunately they panicked, and off they went. Into the creek went the gosling, tweeting and twittering for his family as they went in opposite directions: gander upstream, goose and goslings bobbing down stream. He caught the current, but wouldn’t stay in it and back to shore he came. I put him in again, straining to see if the goose had stopped, but she was rounding the bend and quickly out of sight.
I couldn’t just walk away. My heart told me something wasn’t right. The little guy wouldn’t stay in the river. So I watched. Downstream it promptly found the shore, and out it came, fearlessly making its way into a motel parking lot.
That was enough. I couldn’t stand it. I made tracks for him, gathered him up with all the mommy instincts I had and took him home. On the way we discovered it had a blind eye.
We don’t know if it is a boy or girl, but we know that Gus-Gus is safe and sound. Swimming in his pool( a huge iron skillet) in the kitchen, tucked into our shirts and an old wool sock to keep him warm (he was only a day or so old when he was found). He even has a playpen made out of gated pipe in the yard so he can go outside.
Our little lost and found recognizes our voices and comes excitedly when it sees us. Can you imagine what Gus-Gus is going to be like in six months? Irrigating partner, playmate, loyal goose friend (yes, we know the downside… goose poop, honking, swimming in Aspen’s pool….)
Gus-Gus, a subtle but noisy reminder of how precious and wonderful life is!
Originally published on the first contemporarywesterndesign.com site May 2007
That’s what went through my mind as I watched this tiny little creature intrepidly making its way over the black top of a busy parking lot outside our favorite little restaurant, the Sundance Café, in Dubois, Wyoming.
It was not a wind up, but a little, green-gray gosling fresh out of Horse Creek. Lost? Obviously.
Aspen and I tried to herd it back to the river. Ever tried to herd a goose? Impossible! So I swooped it up, put him in my coat and trooped over to the creek, to its siblings, the goose and gander.
Unfortunately they panicked, and off they went. Into the creek went the gosling, tweeting and twittering for his family as they went in opposite directions: gander upstream, goose and goslings bobbing down stream. He caught the current, but wouldn’t stay in it and back to shore he came. I put him in again, straining to see if the goose had stopped, but she was rounding the bend and quickly out of sight.
I couldn’t just walk away. My heart told me something wasn’t right. The little guy wouldn’t stay in the river. So I watched. Downstream it promptly found the shore, and out it came, fearlessly making its way into a motel parking lot.
That was enough. I couldn’t stand it. I made tracks for him, gathered him up with all the mommy instincts I had and took him home. On the way we discovered it had a blind eye.
We don’t know if it is a boy or girl, but we know that Gus-Gus is safe and sound. Swimming in his pool( a huge iron skillet) in the kitchen, tucked into our shirts and an old wool sock to keep him warm (he was only a day or so old when he was found). He even has a playpen made out of gated pipe in the yard so he can go outside.
Our little lost and found recognizes our voices and comes excitedly when it sees us. Can you imagine what Gus-Gus is going to be like in six months? Irrigating partner, playmate, loyal goose friend (yes, we know the downside… goose poop, honking, swimming in Aspen’s pool….)
Gus-Gus, a subtle but noisy reminder of how precious and wonderful life is!
Originally published on the first contemporarywesterndesign.com site May 2007
from the Archives, "Dad"
I remember the first time I came near the card aisle the first Father’s Day after my dad died. You couldn’t have drug me down it with a bulldozer. In fact, if I remember right, tears sprang to my eyes and I had to turn and leave the store.
My dad was a kind and gentle soul who worked very hard at both ranching and teaching. He could spot a kid who needed someone to believe in him at 1000 yards and I never saw him not make a difference.
It was hard to have your father as a teacher. He had high expectations. I was up to the task and usually rose to the occasion. I learned the FFA creed when I was just six years old, fascinated by the blue and gold jacketed members that stood at the podium in the front of the room and recited its poetic and heartfelt words.
Dad was happy when the ranch was a part of my life that I enjoyed. He needed a good hired hand and was proud that I worked as hard or harder than any boys that he could find. He was tough, but fair. And he rarely disputed my far flung dreams of traveling the world and always made sure that I had a chance to reach to them with several weeks off in the summer to travel.
I remember singing “Little Joe the Wrangler” and “Red River Valley” in the feed truck with him as we finished chores. He was always singing or humming and he taught me early how to dance. He read Thunderhead, Flicka and Green Grass of Wyoming to me each night before bed and I knew I wasn’t the only child that dreamed of horses, wide open spaces and being on a ranch forever.
He gave me his blessing to spread my wings and apply to an Ivy League school for college and hugged me tight when I got on the plane for Japan when I was merely 15.
He taught me how to plan rations, map genetics for the cow herd, plant the right mix of grass for hay and break a horse to ride. There was no question I loved my dad.
I wasn’t there the day he died, 2000 miles away. He had made it through my college graduation and Christmas day. Not long before, we’d found out he had cancer. Six months was all it took.
The irony is that he died in prison, a tragic end to a man I loved so much. I didn’t condone what he had done, but it didn’t change how I felt about him. I couldn’t be by his side that day on December 26th when he said good-bye to earth, but he gave me the greatest gift possible: a life full of love and an understanding that no matter how bad things are there is always good. It’s just up to me to find it.
Thank you, Dad. I love you.
Originally published on the first contemporarywesterndesign.com site June 2007
My dad was a kind and gentle soul who worked very hard at both ranching and teaching. He could spot a kid who needed someone to believe in him at 1000 yards and I never saw him not make a difference.
It was hard to have your father as a teacher. He had high expectations. I was up to the task and usually rose to the occasion. I learned the FFA creed when I was just six years old, fascinated by the blue and gold jacketed members that stood at the podium in the front of the room and recited its poetic and heartfelt words.
Dad was happy when the ranch was a part of my life that I enjoyed. He needed a good hired hand and was proud that I worked as hard or harder than any boys that he could find. He was tough, but fair. And he rarely disputed my far flung dreams of traveling the world and always made sure that I had a chance to reach to them with several weeks off in the summer to travel.
I remember singing “Little Joe the Wrangler” and “Red River Valley” in the feed truck with him as we finished chores. He was always singing or humming and he taught me early how to dance. He read Thunderhead, Flicka and Green Grass of Wyoming to me each night before bed and I knew I wasn’t the only child that dreamed of horses, wide open spaces and being on a ranch forever.
He gave me his blessing to spread my wings and apply to an Ivy League school for college and hugged me tight when I got on the plane for Japan when I was merely 15.
He taught me how to plan rations, map genetics for the cow herd, plant the right mix of grass for hay and break a horse to ride. There was no question I loved my dad.
I wasn’t there the day he died, 2000 miles away. He had made it through my college graduation and Christmas day. Not long before, we’d found out he had cancer. Six months was all it took.
The irony is that he died in prison, a tragic end to a man I loved so much. I didn’t condone what he had done, but it didn’t change how I felt about him. I couldn’t be by his side that day on December 26th when he said good-bye to earth, but he gave me the greatest gift possible: a life full of love and an understanding that no matter how bad things are there is always good. It’s just up to me to find it.
Thank you, Dad. I love you.
Originally published on the first contemporarywesterndesign.com site June 2007
from the Archives, "Mourning Gus"
All life is a gift and our gift came in a little bundle of lost fluff.
We marveled over his voracious appetite as he grew, literally, inches everyday. We coddled him in our arms, dug through the snow to get him fresh greens and named him (or her) Gus.
As the sun rose over the Wind River Valley there was a stillness to the yard that seemed unnatural. As I started for my walk I tried not to think about it until Aspen found some tail feathers and my heart constricted. “No!” I thought, “It can’t be. He’s just gone to the pond.” I went for my walk in complete denial trying with all my might to keep positive.
When I returned, we found a trail of feathers and finally the kill site. It simply broke my heart. Gussy was gone. Tracks couldn’t be found to tell us what had gotten him. We can only guess: a hungry fox, coyote or coon? None of which we really wanted to consider as a reality.
I couldn’t help but retreat to the bathroom and sob. A little girl not understanding the weight of the situation kept asking if I wanted a bow in my hair or to watch cartoons. “Would that make you feel better?” Finally in an exasperated attempt to soothe her mommy, she gave me a stuffed animal so I could “hug him, too.”
After all the years of being on the ranch I have lost my share of animals and cried over every single one of them. I will never get used to the fact that life ends; sometimes quickly and unexpectedly.
The really painful part of the situation is that the night before I had been out late checking on the kittens and wondered where Gus was holed up for the night. Usually the dogs are left out to keep any predators away. I thought about it and wondered where the big lab, Tar, was. As it turns out, she was asleep in the closet and I didn’t follow my gut that something was wrong. It makes me sick and the guilt wracks my heart.
Life’s lessons never end and as I mourn the little fuzzy guy who grew into a noble goose and was just learning to fly, I vow not to just fall into bed exhausted next time. I will keep up the vigilance that mothers are so good at and always listen to my intuition.
Gus brought us a lot of joy and for that I am grateful. My dad always had a saying: “Life is hard, she always gives the test first, the lesson after.” Lesson learned.
Originally published on the first contemporarywesterndesign.com site July 2007
We marveled over his voracious appetite as he grew, literally, inches everyday. We coddled him in our arms, dug through the snow to get him fresh greens and named him (or her) Gus.
As the sun rose over the Wind River Valley there was a stillness to the yard that seemed unnatural. As I started for my walk I tried not to think about it until Aspen found some tail feathers and my heart constricted. “No!” I thought, “It can’t be. He’s just gone to the pond.” I went for my walk in complete denial trying with all my might to keep positive.
When I returned, we found a trail of feathers and finally the kill site. It simply broke my heart. Gussy was gone. Tracks couldn’t be found to tell us what had gotten him. We can only guess: a hungry fox, coyote or coon? None of which we really wanted to consider as a reality.
I couldn’t help but retreat to the bathroom and sob. A little girl not understanding the weight of the situation kept asking if I wanted a bow in my hair or to watch cartoons. “Would that make you feel better?” Finally in an exasperated attempt to soothe her mommy, she gave me a stuffed animal so I could “hug him, too.”
After all the years of being on the ranch I have lost my share of animals and cried over every single one of them. I will never get used to the fact that life ends; sometimes quickly and unexpectedly.
The really painful part of the situation is that the night before I had been out late checking on the kittens and wondered where Gus was holed up for the night. Usually the dogs are left out to keep any predators away. I thought about it and wondered where the big lab, Tar, was. As it turns out, she was asleep in the closet and I didn’t follow my gut that something was wrong. It makes me sick and the guilt wracks my heart.
Life’s lessons never end and as I mourn the little fuzzy guy who grew into a noble goose and was just learning to fly, I vow not to just fall into bed exhausted next time. I will keep up the vigilance that mothers are so good at and always listen to my intuition.
Gus brought us a lot of joy and for that I am grateful. My dad always had a saying: “Life is hard, she always gives the test first, the lesson after.” Lesson learned.
Originally published on the first contemporarywesterndesign.com site July 2007
from the Archives, "Liquid Gold"
It’s like gold: providing livelihoods, causing wars and inspiring celebrations. It can be too plentiful and damaging, too slight and devastating. When it’s just right, it’s a beautiful thing.
Water in the west is king, and for months we’ve prayed for snow, rain, hail, anything with the chemical value of H2O. Nothing, but wind. Dry wind sucking the last remaining moisture from the earth, blowing top soil and making trees reach to the heavens, begging for the sky to quench their thirst.
Around the dinner table, we prayed for snow and rain each day and watched the skies. The new seeding was in the ground and we needed moisture before the wind blew it into the next county.
Then, the smell of rain, the clouds hanging low over the mountains. Could it be? I was carefully optimistic as I walked under the moon, watching the clouds push around it, then cover the sphere in a heavy veil. I could smell the sweetness of the spring rain on the mountains. It was close, but would it come on into the valley? I prayed out loud that it would.
My footsteps crunched in the stubble of the alfalfa field and I felt a drop, then another. It was a slow, light sprinkling of precious moisture. Perhaps it would blow over like so many times before. As I stepped inside from my evening walk, I heard the beat of the raindrops crescendo to a beautiful rhythm on the steel roof. It was raining! Finally!
That night I went to bed to the rhythm of the rain, and awoke to a stillness that can only be caused by a heavy covering of snow! White Gold! It’s a beautiful thing.
Originally published on the first contemporarywesterndesign.com site May 2007
Water in the west is king, and for months we’ve prayed for snow, rain, hail, anything with the chemical value of H2O. Nothing, but wind. Dry wind sucking the last remaining moisture from the earth, blowing top soil and making trees reach to the heavens, begging for the sky to quench their thirst.
Around the dinner table, we prayed for snow and rain each day and watched the skies. The new seeding was in the ground and we needed moisture before the wind blew it into the next county.
Then, the smell of rain, the clouds hanging low over the mountains. Could it be? I was carefully optimistic as I walked under the moon, watching the clouds push around it, then cover the sphere in a heavy veil. I could smell the sweetness of the spring rain on the mountains. It was close, but would it come on into the valley? I prayed out loud that it would.
My footsteps crunched in the stubble of the alfalfa field and I felt a drop, then another. It was a slow, light sprinkling of precious moisture. Perhaps it would blow over like so many times before. As I stepped inside from my evening walk, I heard the beat of the raindrops crescendo to a beautiful rhythm on the steel roof. It was raining! Finally!
That night I went to bed to the rhythm of the rain, and awoke to a stillness that can only be caused by a heavy covering of snow! White Gold! It’s a beautiful thing.
Originally published on the first contemporarywesterndesign.com site May 2007
from the Archives, "In the Earth"
I am tired to the bone. Twenty hour days of frantic work, mothering, managing and juggling. Everything is going at such a rapid pace, I feel like I am not even touching the earth as I check things off of my list, run from one task to another, answer another phone, meet another deadline, don’t forget to cook dinner, feed the animals. I know what I need: some grounding.
A friend who is very wise, once said to me, “ When you feel like life is whirling out of control, go sit your bottom down on the ground, put your toes in the dirt, sift its fineness through your hands- and ground yourself again.” She was very wise and very right.
So in the midst of the madness, I’ve come back to the Earth. Stood quietly in the field with the mountains surrounding me, water running near the yellow boots on my feet, water in new corrugations needing to be walked to the end of the field. Slowly I feel peace descending and my world slowing to a pace where thoughts can be attended to and deep breaths of clean, pure air enjoyed.
The dry dirt of the field soaks in the much needed water to nourish the seedlings of alfalfa into a viable crop and I am reminded that my soul too, needs nurturing. The smell of water running over newly worked soil and the essence of alfalfa growing under the spring sun is recognizable not only from my childhood, but a subtle reminder of this life as one that gives me peace. A strange paradoxically world I live in: high tech, fast paced, deadline after deadline versus one filled and governed by mother nature herself. I need them both to fulfill my soul. Every little while the fields of my soul need to be irrigated with the grounding of the earth itself: quiet, animals, crops, trees, the mountains and the soil sifting through my fingers. With the firmness of the earth beneath my feet I am, once again, grounded.
Originally published on the first contemporarywesterndesign.com website May 2007
A friend who is very wise, once said to me, “ When you feel like life is whirling out of control, go sit your bottom down on the ground, put your toes in the dirt, sift its fineness through your hands- and ground yourself again.” She was very wise and very right.
So in the midst of the madness, I’ve come back to the Earth. Stood quietly in the field with the mountains surrounding me, water running near the yellow boots on my feet, water in new corrugations needing to be walked to the end of the field. Slowly I feel peace descending and my world slowing to a pace where thoughts can be attended to and deep breaths of clean, pure air enjoyed.
The dry dirt of the field soaks in the much needed water to nourish the seedlings of alfalfa into a viable crop and I am reminded that my soul too, needs nurturing. The smell of water running over newly worked soil and the essence of alfalfa growing under the spring sun is recognizable not only from my childhood, but a subtle reminder of this life as one that gives me peace. A strange paradoxically world I live in: high tech, fast paced, deadline after deadline versus one filled and governed by mother nature herself. I need them both to fulfill my soul. Every little while the fields of my soul need to be irrigated with the grounding of the earth itself: quiet, animals, crops, trees, the mountains and the soil sifting through my fingers. With the firmness of the earth beneath my feet I am, once again, grounded.
Originally published on the first contemporarywesterndesign.com website May 2007
from the Archives, "Measured in Heartbeats"
In January 1997, I was a marketing specialist for a corporate management company and feeling very unfulfilled. To try to fill the void, I had started working with the Japanese government to find unique Wyoming products and export them to Japan. Having been an exchange student to Japan when I was 16, I felt a special connection to the land of the rising sun.
In my search, I stumbled across the Western Design Conference. The event was a mere three years old and had already experienced several incarnations. I was fascinated. Being a fifth generation Wyoming native and having grown up in the Cowboy state, I thought I was pretty savvy about what happened within its borders, but I had never heard of the Western Design Conference.
After a successful buyers meeting with Mike Patrick, one of the event’s founders, I was asked if I would consider the executive director’s position at the Conference. What a delightful, unexpected turn of events. After phone calls, interviews and meetings, I knew I wanted the job more than anything else I had ever wanted.
A nerve wracking few days passed before I got the call. I was the new executive director! What I didn’t know was that this was the beginning of an incredible journey that would define my future.
Restructuring a fabulous event that had already outgrown its clothes was my first challenge and I welcomed that challenge. In truth, I didn’t know what I was doing, but I had ideas and charged ahead to implement them.
Over six years, I poured my blood, sweat and tears into the Conference. Never had I experienced anything so rewarding and frustrating at the same time. Looking back, I have no regrets. I learned so much, made friends that continue to inspire me everyday and most of all, I found that niche that I had been looking for: western design. For the first time in a long time I felt fulfilled. The experience is the reason I am writing to you today, the reason that I feel so strongly about western craft, fashion and art, the reason I found purpose in my life.
I have never forgotten the words of Suzanne Warner at an awards breakfast a number of years ago at Cassie’s. She said, “The time we put into our pieces is not measured in days, hours or minutes, but heartbeats.” To me that said it all. The pieces created by this phenomenal group of artists are not works that are made just to sustain them every day, but creations that are infused with a part of their soul. I wear a bracelet made by Suzanne and every time I put it on, I wonder just how many heartbeats it took to create. The light and love it holds is evidence of the power of creating by hand and with the guidance of one’s soul.
May every life that is touched by an artist retain a piece of the inspiration to pass on to another.
Originally published on the first contemporarywesterndesign.com website September 2007
In my search, I stumbled across the Western Design Conference. The event was a mere three years old and had already experienced several incarnations. I was fascinated. Being a fifth generation Wyoming native and having grown up in the Cowboy state, I thought I was pretty savvy about what happened within its borders, but I had never heard of the Western Design Conference.
After a successful buyers meeting with Mike Patrick, one of the event’s founders, I was asked if I would consider the executive director’s position at the Conference. What a delightful, unexpected turn of events. After phone calls, interviews and meetings, I knew I wanted the job more than anything else I had ever wanted.
A nerve wracking few days passed before I got the call. I was the new executive director! What I didn’t know was that this was the beginning of an incredible journey that would define my future.
Restructuring a fabulous event that had already outgrown its clothes was my first challenge and I welcomed that challenge. In truth, I didn’t know what I was doing, but I had ideas and charged ahead to implement them.
Over six years, I poured my blood, sweat and tears into the Conference. Never had I experienced anything so rewarding and frustrating at the same time. Looking back, I have no regrets. I learned so much, made friends that continue to inspire me everyday and most of all, I found that niche that I had been looking for: western design. For the first time in a long time I felt fulfilled. The experience is the reason I am writing to you today, the reason that I feel so strongly about western craft, fashion and art, the reason I found purpose in my life.
I have never forgotten the words of Suzanne Warner at an awards breakfast a number of years ago at Cassie’s. She said, “The time we put into our pieces is not measured in days, hours or minutes, but heartbeats.” To me that said it all. The pieces created by this phenomenal group of artists are not works that are made just to sustain them every day, but creations that are infused with a part of their soul. I wear a bracelet made by Suzanne and every time I put it on, I wonder just how many heartbeats it took to create. The light and love it holds is evidence of the power of creating by hand and with the guidance of one’s soul.
May every life that is touched by an artist retain a piece of the inspiration to pass on to another.
Originally published on the first contemporarywesterndesign.com website September 2007
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